Single.. Who has never had a Girlfriend/boyfriend? (1 Viewer)

[umop 3pisdn]

ffs troll

 

[Bendeguz]

You claim that I am a creature from mythology, and I confess that I do not understand. From my point of view, I do my best to provide input to discourses, put effort and extensive thought into what I write, and provide material for further discussion. That is what I see, so be so kind as to inform me of what you see: explain to me why I am a ‘troll’. Until you do, I shall continue to deny the title you have labelled me with.

 

[lexonfire]

lol okay bendeguz, why after all of that wouldn't you want to change? i mean, you're even admitting you're the only one to blame. it solves the problem of feeling shitty roaming Epping alone and feeling alienated at a party at the same time! it's interesting cos if it werent for all of that self analysis, things probably wouldnt be so bad.

and wow for roman numerals

 

[GreenLeaf]

Good evening all.

I am Bendegúz, hear me moan.

I have just returned from a school friend’s XVIIIth, and boy do I feel bad. I had a really bad time. There is the usual list, but I think I will include only those that are relevant to this thread. I realised how repulsive I am: I mean I have known that I have many bad points but aside from the romantic side of the picture, I have always seen myself as a gentleman and an overall nice chap. But tonight, I saw that I was psychologically retarded. I (as I mentioned before) have never so much as held a girls hand in a romantic scenario, so therefore this has escalated to such that I consciously perceive any physical contact with a heightened sense of anxiety. I saw girls sitting in the laps of other males, giving hugs, dancing together, sitting together in the spa, etc. All I could think was “Nobody does that to Bendegúz.”.

I then proceeded to grab a two litre bottle of coke, a plastic cup and myself, and for nearly an hour wandered about the asphalt wasteland of Epping at Xp.m. slowly drinking and contemplating my situation. I imagine I must have been a strange sight, wearing a suit, holding a bottle and cup (‘daintily’, I might add) and being completely devoid of shoes and socks, all the whilst it was raining gently around me and the ground was freezing cold. During my wandering I came to the conclusion that the reason I placed myself in self-imposed exile was because that although I felt pretty miserable all alone in the cold night, it was much better than hanging around the outskirts of the party. Being there and knowing myself for being the outsider I am was like plunging a bayonet into my soul and twisting it.

But than who do I have to blame? Myself, and only myself. I alienate myself, I make myself unapproachable and hideous on the inside. But do I want to change? Do I want to really change? No…

So is there anybody out there who has felt like a white elephant before too? Let me hear the tales of the lonely and out of place.

Your writing resemblence is uncanny: http://www.wibsite.com/wiblog/dull/

 

[Bendeguz]

lol okay bendeguz, why after all of that wouldn't you want to change? i mean, you're even admitting you're the only one to blame. it solves the problem of feeling shitty roaming Epping alone and feeling alienated at a party at the same time! it's interesting cos if it werent for all of that self analysis, things probably wouldnt be so bad.

and wow for roman numerals

That is a very good point which you make: why don’t I change? The thing is, I don’t really want to change. I perceive there to be a couple of reasons; (a) Because it would take a great deal of effort, (b) because I have grown comfortable with it over the years and it has become my comfort zone - what I expect and anticipate (c) I like the individualism that I possess - everybody remembers Bendeguz, you can pick him out of a crowd of a thousand with relative ease (d) I fear change - one step down the direction to conformation will result in a whole journey, and I will end up like the binge-drinking stoners whom I despise with a flame that could have served the Holy Inquisition. (e) I physically can’t - for example, if I have my shirt untucked for a reason other than that of the stage I feel very uncomfortable and vulnerable. (f) I jus can’t loosen up personally, and I have no alcohol to grease the passage either.
All up I think that I subconsciously believe that my current status is preferable because wallowing in self pity is better than wallowing in what I condemn to be immorality.

Your writing resemblence is uncanny: http://www.wibsite.com/wiblog/dull/

I don’t know if I should be insulted… hmm… I think I shall be. Yes, I am insulted… I think.

bendeguz. yur a champ mate. i feel wat yur feeling. seriosuly, i wouldnt notice if a girl was hitting on me until she said it. too many times at parties/clubs i've felt a girl move in and i suddenly panic and go all anxious. the penile tissues begin hardeing, and i'm not sure whether shes just dancing or she actually wants something. so in this twilight zone of indecision every time i take the safe route and back out instead of taking my chances. every time.

I know exactly what you mean. Body language and the such are no mean feats to decipher. I have read a book or two on the matter, but I find that even if by some chance that I do get the impression a female may find me attractive, a little thought comes screaming into my head saying that I am making a mistake, I have misread as no girl could ever be attracted to me, etc.
DO NOT LISTEN TO THOSE THOUGHTS! I do, and look at where it has gotten me. My personal advice to you is try to get to know a couple of females - just one or two, I am not telling you to stop going to parties/clubs, just consider it an ‘experiment’ - in normal situations, ones where it is more conservative behaviour and thus a lot less easy to misinterpret (not impossible though).

i think the problem with me is i'm too scared of getting rejected by a girl to even start something. i made a personal vow to myself that i never want a girl to ever have to turn me down. too many times i'm like "oh yeh, i'll wait for her to make the first move to check if she's interested". and then the girl perceives my cold shoulder as a lack of interest and ends it. i'm 17, and have never so much as kissed/held hands romantically.

Ahh, the fear of rejection, I know it well. Although on a different level, I too have often waited for the opposite member to make the move, and I can tell you (and as you can already tell yourself from what I see), it doesn’t really work all that well. The thing is, that despite feminine emancipation and equal gender rights, it is still generally expected in our society that the male make the ‘first move’. There are exceptions of course, but overall it is how it stands.
In the past (this is before I grudgingly accepted my fate as an Eternal Celibate Bachelor) I asked at least III females out. Only one accepted, and after a night at the theatre she that was all. There was a IVth with whom I was desperately in Love (and I do mean literally love, not a crush, but utter romantic infatuation), but I made the mistake of asking a friend to ask what she would say if I would ask her out. He said the answer would be no, so I suppressed my emotions and plodded on with a heavy heart. That is the cowards way! Do not EVER do what I did! Or if you have, don’t do it again!
The simple fact is that you have to swallow your fear of rejection and cop it in the chin if it comes. Don’t be a Bendegúz!

and seriosuly, again it's not like i cant get any. i'm sure some girls that i had on notice at uni/school/work are affordable for me. it's just that i cant figure out the process/mechanism to initiate anything.

The only way you are going to figure it out is by jumping over the top and charging at the machineguns. Trial by fire is one of the very best ways you can learn, in my opinion. Oh, just one point of concern; what do you mean by “affordable”?

omg i've never expressed my self pity so much before.

It is good that you do! Just make sure you don’t do it [I[all the time[/I] like I do: the long term affects are not enviable, let me tell you.

P.S.: Before any of you say anything, I am all too aware of the deep poetic irony of this post.

 

[lexonfire]

That is a very good point which you make: why don’t I change? The thing is, I don’t really want to change. I perceive there to be a couple of reasons; (a) Because it would take a great deal of effort, (b) because I have grown comfortable with it over the years and it has become my comfort zone - what I expect and anticipate (c) I like the individualism that I possess - everybody remembers Bendeguz, you can pick him out of a crowd of a thousand with relative ease (d) I fear change - one step down the direction to conformation will result in a whole journey, and I will end up like the binge-drinking stoners whom I despise with a flame that could have served the Holy Inquisition. (e) I physically can’t - for example, if I have my shirt untucked for a reason other than that of the stage I feel very uncomfortable and vulnerable. (f) I jus can’t loosen up personally, and I have no alcohol to grease the passage either.
All up I think that I subconsciously believe that my current status is preferable because wallowing in self pity is better than wallowing in what I condemn to be immorality.

yeah as i said, it's funny you say that because you're sealing your own fate with all of this self analysis! it's crazy you wouldn't attempt to change, but then again i know what you mean by comfort zones and the binge-drinking stoner. except not to the point where having an untucked shirt makes me feel vulnerable, haha. at least ur comfort zone places you in a unique position, i guess. i mean, shirt-tucking fascist who prefers roman numerals? haha no it doesn't sound that bad

 

[Bendeguz]

Well, my good individual you are cordially invited out to a night of drinking to prove your own existence (For which you will be summarily rewarded with free beverages) -> Refusal of this offer merely concretes suspicions that you are a troll account with a high level of effort invested into it.

If you live in Sydney at all know where the City is, you qualify for free drinks.

Your offer is tempting, to a point. I do not know if I have mentioned it, but I do not drink alcohol: not one drop. I will gladly meet you to prove that I am not some eccentric fabrication but an eccentric reality, but not to consume fermented juices. If this is what makes me a ‘troll’ than I shall wear it with pride.

yeah as i said, it's funny you say that because you're sealing your own fate with all of this self analysis! it's crazy you wouldn't attempt to change, but then again i know what you mean by comfort zones and the binge-drinking stoner. except not to the point where having an untucked shirt makes me feel vulnerable, haha. at least ur comfort zone places you in a unique position, i guess. i mean, shirt-tucking fascist who prefers roman numerals? haha no it doesn't sound that bad

Its is deliciously ironic, isn’t it (yes, I do really like to use the word Ironic. So shoot me.): I see what is wrong perfectly clearly, I just do not do anything productive with the information. But like you say, the indisputable individualism does have its pleasures . Frankly, the thought of being forgotton, of being just another face in the crowd is more disturbing to me than giving up on the prospect of love.

affordable as in within my league.

Few, I thought you where looking at females from a pecuniary paradigm. You had me scared for a moment there. In that case my advice to you doe not change. Do any of you other B.O.S. people have two cents to throw ViRtUaL’s way?

 

[Captain Gh3y]

i love the anonymity of bos. the funny thing is there isnt a single soul in the world who i actually know, to whom i could express these feelings and sentiments without being laughed at for a week (friends), or without being told off for thinking about even wanting a relationship (lol conservative parents).

Hi Kaivan Vaidya

http://www.indianlink.com.au/files/images/kaivan_vaidya_1.thumbnail.jpg

that's you

Hint: Impress girls with your geography skills.

 

[Ennaybur]

sure, he's not ugly.

 

[Ennaybur]

I hear he's a 16 years model?

 

[Captain Gh3y]

but IS he a 16 years old model?

EDIT: quite b10

err... I'm his current gf?

 

[Ennaybur]

The funny thing is I was about to say (in my first post) "but he's no asian"

in which case 'Have you bang?"

 

[withoutaface]

If we don't drink, the terrorists win.

 

[Ennaybur]

If we don't drink, the terrorists win.

if you're not with the lulz, you're with the terrorists.

alcohol = lulz

therefore, you surmise correctly good sir.

 

[ellen.louise]

Wow... it's not actually as hard as i thought it would be to tell someone you have feelings for them. Kinda releived now.

 

[Not-That-Bright]

There was this one girl that let me hold her hands at the movies once, does that count?????

 

[vanush]

ffs troll

FFS, if you search his name and school, his name comes up. Unless the troll has stolen his identity.

http://www.google.com.au/search?q=b...ls=com.ubuntu:en-US:official&client=firefox-a

2nd result.

 

[vanush]

Bendeguz, if you're real, there are others like you. They're just not as adept or enthusiastic in expressing themselves to an online student community. Trust me.

 

[lexonfire]

Frankly, the thought of being forgotton, of being just another face in the crowd is more disturbing to me than giving up on the prospect of love.

Baffling people! Really...

 

[jumb]

Bendeguz is a pretty top troll.