thanks everyone for caring so much.
yeah i said i had period like symptoms but hey the must of been pregnancy ones.
this i going to be the probably the toughest thing ive ever gone through, but ive been through a lot before, and ive only gotten stronger. im not saying ive had a way bad life, but at times ive stuggled to keep my head above the water..when things were tough, i tried to committ suicide..but failed...and that was nothing comapred to this. but today, now, i know that ive since grown and im not that same person. im going to pull through this situation no matter what the option is, because i know im stronger than it.
my parents have a lot on, i know they want the best for me, but im going to do the best for them, and to me, thats not telling them unless i really have to. as much as i love them..i realise this is something that my boyfriend and i did, and we need to go through it together. we are responisble adults (maybe we once were...) and if we want to prove we still are, we are going to do this by ourselves.
to me, abortion is the better option. keeping the child, or going through with the pregnancy and putting it up for adoption, would be worse for me, my boyfriend, and the child. there is no possible way i can bring a child up safely and healthy at this moment in time.
ive reaserched it and everything, we can afford it financially, and hopefully emotionally. ive actually had a lot worse happen to me before, and i somehow know ill be alright, even though it may be hard.
my boyfriend and i have discussed the options, talked about it and talked about it. we both have come to the conlusion abortion is better for us/me. he wanted me to have an abortion, and was worried i wanted to keep it, but no, we agreed on termination.
my exams go for 2 1/2 weeks...i than have 2 1/2 weeks til my formal. so hopefully in that space of time i can have the abortion and recover properly.
thanks guys. if it was possible, i would give everyone of you a hug...nd remind me next may when im 18, to shout you all a drink somewhere