Hello,
Halfway through this year I decided to get English tutoring because my marks were not going higher than a B (at a non selective school) for English Advanced. After more than 10 weeks of tutoring, I have noticed that I haven't actually improved in English. My tutor reads my drafts and completely changes them to "better essays" which I submit to the teacher and most of the time, I can't even tell what I was arguing for anymore. However, my school teacher is now very proud of me as my English as improved significantly (and I feel upset because I didn't even do much to become better). Also, my parents are very worried about my ATAR and my performance in English. They don't feel that it's a big deal that the work I am submitting is not really my own but I feel the need to actually improve and get marks deserving of my talent. I also know that nearly everyone in my grade gets their essays polished by their tutor but should I really be continuing this cycle of submitting work that I don't even understand myself just for high marks and the satisfaction of my parents? Also if I talk about leaving the tutoring service, my parents most probably will not let me because they don't care about whether I learn, they only want to see high ranks and grades. What should I do??
Halfway through this year I decided to get English tutoring because my marks were not going higher than a B (at a non selective school) for English Advanced. After more than 10 weeks of tutoring, I have noticed that I haven't actually improved in English. My tutor reads my drafts and completely changes them to "better essays" which I submit to the teacher and most of the time, I can't even tell what I was arguing for anymore. However, my school teacher is now very proud of me as my English as improved significantly (and I feel upset because I didn't even do much to become better). Also, my parents are very worried about my ATAR and my performance in English. They don't feel that it's a big deal that the work I am submitting is not really my own but I feel the need to actually improve and get marks deserving of my talent. I also know that nearly everyone in my grade gets their essays polished by their tutor but should I really be continuing this cycle of submitting work that I don't even understand myself just for high marks and the satisfaction of my parents? Also if I talk about leaving the tutoring service, my parents most probably will not let me because they don't care about whether I learn, they only want to see high ranks and grades. What should I do??