I dont know where I am heading in life after this breakup
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well i figured out what mite have motivated him to break up...and i told him dat...and he called me all these names and how i have always thought/made up things myself... but the point is if he's telling me stuff in bits in pieces..1st saying his mum and dad didnt agree, and then goes i am confused as to what i want...and then later goes they were not opposing me and it was my decision... i dont know what's right what's wrong!!!... btw when we were together...i used to be the one always staying in touch cos his excuse was that he was busy....i.e. all of year 2004... he didnt bother about me much, but i didnt give up, cos i really loved him...and when we had a chat when we both had holidays..he goes theres no more warmth in our relationship...I was like WHATTTT? i was like i did what ever i cud to keep u happy to stay in touch...etc...how come u never bothered? he goes I dunno I just didnt feel like it... omg wat a stupid reason... and when we both had holidays we got a bit more closer cos we were like talking every day..and dats on the net... n yeh got very intimate and planned our future ... like what we want to do when we meet after a long time... or how we wud go out n look into each others eyes...cos it wud be good meeting after ages...
anyways looking back at it all... may be he found being intimate really nice..and fun.. but when the time came to be together he just backed out arrrrghhhhh
i dunno when thoughts of him are gona leave me.... i had sooo many expectations from this relationship...but anyway as they say, it was not meant to be
anyways =\ hehe yeh good idea: public place... but that's if we get to meet