Last year I met this guy and we became pretty close. About a month ago everything was going great, he wanted to be my boyfriend and I wanted the same except I chickened. I hate relationships so I was about iffy but then I decided I really wanted to be with him. Except I fucked it up because I hooked up with someone else in front of him so he now doesn't want a bar of me, fair enough.
But for some reason I just can't let go of it. He is just a boy so why the fuck do I care so much? Its been almost a month and I still dwell on it. He CLEARLY doesn't want me, so why do I keep trying.
I only ask this because when I get drunk and see him I just lose it and make a fool of myself in trying to talk to him and making him jealous. WTF.
I just want to forget about everything, but i can't.
What can i do?