Hello fellow peers,
A bit of background information, about me, first:
I am in year 10 and really want a 95+ ATAR so I can study Advanced Science (Hons). I have been overly panicked throughout the last few days, involving nightmares, panic attacks and random self deprecating thoughts about the HSC. Truth is, I never participated in selective, due to my primary ideology of studying in a non-stressful environment, but later on I think I've come across its repercussions. Although I may be doing well at school, achieving a 100% in both Maths and Science, my fear is that my school's rank is going to 'scale' me down. I've almost prevented myself from acknowledging my performance by instilling my growing opinion that the only reason I achieve 100% consistently is due to my school's academic performance. Although I may have a decent degree of self confidence, my main fear is that I am going to get a bad ATAR due to fear and panic. I also have social anxiety which makes me sweat (A LOT) and I am worried that I am, quite literally, going to drown my HSC paper. Aside from that, my main interests are science, pure maths and quantum mechanics (of course not in a professional level, only conceptual ideas). I have also had prior issues involving a low self esteem due to me thinking that I have an average IQ and that the concepts that I understand can be understood by an average mind (not that that's bad or anything, I just used to consider myself as an intelligent person) and I am just a pseudo-intellectual. This brought up struggles when I study at school and being overly competitive to almost falsely 'convince' my mind that I am intelligent. Now, I have grown from those past fears and have realised that as long as I study hard I can achieve greater than any true genius. However, my stability has now begun to fluctuate since I started pondering about my new arising fear: not achieving well in the HSC and not getting into my course. My question is: based on the extrapolation of my performance, scaling it to the toughness of the HSC and my school, is it possible for me to achieve a 95+ ATAR? Also, I don't do very well in English mainly because what I write in essays is unorthodox and even though I pre-plan it, I find it hard to remember when my mind is having severe anxiety attacks and I'm sweating a lot. If you've read this far, I applaud your patience and thank you! Please be kind as this is my first time posting.
A bit of background information, about me, first:
I am in year 10 and really want a 95+ ATAR so I can study Advanced Science (Hons). I have been overly panicked throughout the last few days, involving nightmares, panic attacks and random self deprecating thoughts about the HSC. Truth is, I never participated in selective, due to my primary ideology of studying in a non-stressful environment, but later on I think I've come across its repercussions. Although I may be doing well at school, achieving a 100% in both Maths and Science, my fear is that my school's rank is going to 'scale' me down. I've almost prevented myself from acknowledging my performance by instilling my growing opinion that the only reason I achieve 100% consistently is due to my school's academic performance. Although I may have a decent degree of self confidence, my main fear is that I am going to get a bad ATAR due to fear and panic. I also have social anxiety which makes me sweat (A LOT) and I am worried that I am, quite literally, going to drown my HSC paper. Aside from that, my main interests are science, pure maths and quantum mechanics (of course not in a professional level, only conceptual ideas). I have also had prior issues involving a low self esteem due to me thinking that I have an average IQ and that the concepts that I understand can be understood by an average mind (not that that's bad or anything, I just used to consider myself as an intelligent person) and I am just a pseudo-intellectual. This brought up struggles when I study at school and being overly competitive to almost falsely 'convince' my mind that I am intelligent. Now, I have grown from those past fears and have realised that as long as I study hard I can achieve greater than any true genius. However, my stability has now begun to fluctuate since I started pondering about my new arising fear: not achieving well in the HSC and not getting into my course. My question is: based on the extrapolation of my performance, scaling it to the toughness of the HSC and my school, is it possible for me to achieve a 95+ ATAR? Also, I don't do very well in English mainly because what I write in essays is unorthodox and even though I pre-plan it, I find it hard to remember when my mind is having severe anxiety attacks and I'm sweating a lot. If you've read this far, I applaud your patience and thank you! Please be kind as this is my first time posting.