I don't want to lose friends over it and I won't
Although everyone says I'm already becoming robotic. This is what HSC does to people sadly.
I suppose it's not about dux, it's just the expectation my teachers have and I want to do it for my dad. He is so intelligent, exceeds what I could ever wish for, but didn't have the opportunities or education to reach his potential due to financial circumstance and area he grew up in.
Everyone has their talents- singing and sports, but the only thing I've ever had is being somewhat booksmart. :L If I fail at that then ..