Anyways, now about the fact of aspects in my life that I know are outside of my view of existence, but I am forced to engage with anyways, such as school, I believe that this is where…
I have zero want nor need towards these things in my life, however, since I’m forced to engage with them, I’ll have to…
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In the past, when I was forced to focus on something that I didn’t want, because my attention was else where, I managed to get through it by thinking that completing these challenges would give me the freedom to do what I want.
I was right, and during those moments, I would sprint through until I made it back to the world I wanted.
However, most often than not, I would suffer my lack of freedom until then.
So… what way would I have to approach this in order to make it more efficient?
Well, technically, these moments are where there is an opportunity to pick up a new ‘genre’, so maybe if I pay more attention to these things, even though I currently believe I don’t like them now, eventually there will be something out of that side storied view of existence that I can be inspired by, and then it would feel like living a double life, and in both worlds, I can enjoy myself?
Ok, the real question is not about whether I’ll like them or not, it’s a matter of if I hate them right now or not…
Hmmm… well, my current situation, yes, so I guess there is an element of escapism that exists whenever I pay attention to the things that I want whenever I am forced to engage with the things that I don’t(so I guess I’m not so ‘indifferent’ after all.).
However, knowing the power of imagination, I could use it as well to find a potential sub-aspect within this limiting part of my life, that I can call ‘my own’, rather than being a slave to fate.
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When I was once enjoying climbing up from E class to A class in high school alone, the thought of not being, but doing… [This has taken me many days to write since I’ve had many things to deal with when it comes to school, but I was still searching for answers all the same.
I’m giving up on completing this now, since I already have an answer, which will be the following message.]